and i draw a line
to your heart today
to your heart from mine
a line to keep us safe
Jul
29
Jul
24
have you ever had a dream with an imposing sense of doom in it the whole time? but you never sort of figure out what was making you feel that way? i was walking, kitty was following me, and i was taking pictures of the way the sun came through the trees as storm clouds were rolling in. i turned around and there was a home, a normal family home. except all the windows were gone and what pieces of glass were left were blackened. inside there was normal furniture, white bedspread with flowers on it, kitchen table with a beige table cloth… but the outside of the house was black, burned, and really depressed looking. i took pictures of it from the street until i noticed that kitty was gone. he had ventured inside. i was terrified because i wasn’t going in there. i called him from the street. he looked at me from the kitchen and meowed. he was in every window, walking along the blackened glass pieces, meowing madly. something was not right, and i felt it to my bones. i ended up staying in the house across the street all night, looking out, waiting for my kitty to reappear. the people in the house were nice the day before, but became mean as the night moved on. by morning i was desperate to finish my walk home. i noticed i had duct tape around my wrists like bracelets. i don’t remember this, i don’t remember this… i went out with my camera, and kitty was outside with me. but he wasn’t the same and neither was i. we walked slowly home, quietly, listening to the wind howl as another storm began to blow in. i was taking pictures of the way the black bled through the trees as storm clouds were rolling in. the outside of everything, just as the house was, was blackened, burned and depressed.
Jul
4
my dreams are so intense and crazy that i wake up tired. am i the only one? last night… i’m in the garage at my parents house. it’s 3:00 am and i am waiting for the dentist to show up. i can’t believe they scheduled my appointment for 3:19am. so i’m waiting out there, in the dentist chair, looking at the tools, thinking, ugh, i hate these sharp things. i decide that since i can’t sleep, and since i have to wait for him to get there, i’m going to replace the sharp tools with the ultrasonic ones. so i’m moving around all that stuff, waiting. i get nervous that he’ll be mad at me for messing with the tools so i hurry and try to put them all back like they were. and for some reason there is a radio on a country music station in the background that i can’t turn off! then i fell asleep. i woke up the next morning to my dad yelling about how all this dentist shit was in his garage and how he needed to get the lawn mower… the dentist was banging on the door in the night but no one new what was going on so he left… fucking chaos. and retarded chaos at that…. that’s all i remember.
the night before it was taking a trip and a broken radiator… which makes me nervous because we are leaving for new york in a few days. meh. i just wanna sleep at night. that’s not too much to ask. :P